Today I had a slap in the face!
I was reading a blog and about the difficulties they were going through due to his infidelity and her battle to restore their marriage. While there I saw something that showed me a mistake I have done and realised that I had been silly in my expectations at the time and it was time to go back to square one.
So, although I am being ambiguous about this whole thing, I will re start afresh and set up my heart on firmer ground.
This is a new grace from God showing me the way when I loose it and am stumbling along. I am glad to have been given this new opportunity and will thrive to make love work more than usual.