Being a mother of two is not an easy job.
Right now Maya isn’t really demanding of her time since she sleeps most of the time, however, splitting in two to give each their required time is a heart breaking experience every time. Especially if they are both crying and you need to prioritize who is more important at the time.
I do not feel like I am a good mother right now. I am doing my best and I am coping well. however, there is something within me that makes me sad and horribly anxious and because of this all the family is suffering.
I am probably asking too much to have us settled within two weeks of Maya’s birth, yet it would be nice to feel more firm ground.
I try and leave my worries in God’s hands but its very difficult to just do that and so I pray- pray that my patience will grow, my anger will dwindle and my love overwhelm the whole family.