I am alone at home.
It’s quite a bereft feeling not having anyone to care for. My heart, I can feel it hurting.
I am stunned and not yet comprehending. Maya just said bye. She had a twinkle in her eye.
After the last few weeks of gripping me fiercely, she just went without a second glance. Fitting in with her class as if she’d been going since forever.
And I am here in the play room, full of toys strewn all over the place and not sure what to do and where to start.
I am amazed at her because after realising that school was really coming, she took these 3 weeks to come to terms with leaving me and while she hugged me fiercely this morning and told me so she feels better, I think she did more so I feel better.
I used to feel guilt knowing she is going to school and me feeling happy and I laugh at myself because now that it actually happened I am bereft.
A new chapter in our lives. A string that started to unravel. I wonder how school will shape her.