Open your eyes

I had a meeting with the school counsellors last week about Gregory.  They want us to go do sensory tests to get them diagnosed.

We do not think it is necessary.  Yet I felt compelled to watch my older kids closely these two weeks.

On the plus side, which further reinforces the no need for tests etc, is the fact that our son is interacting much easier with people, even those he does not know or not know well.  In fact, for those of you who know him, will agree that he tends to be possessive of toys etc.  Well, I am seeing how that is changing a lot; and how this normally also happens on how he views a person.  So if he feels that person will not take good care of his toys he is unlikely to let them play; but if he feels comfortable enough that they will not break them, he is fine to let them go ahead and play- which I think it is fair enough, although he needs to learn to not have toys around children he does not feel comfortable sharing them with.

A couple weeks ago, despite in a clumsy and not usual way, he tried to befriend a girl at the swings.  He still needs to learn the skills of befriending but that is such a big step forward.  So, all in all, I only see progress and it continues to show how his sensory issues (which probably we all have up to a degree) are not hindering his growth or school interaction as they believe!

They had also asked me how Maya views school.  She always tells us how she loves school.  In truth she does: does enjoy spending time with friends, learning and her teachers.

Yet there is that something which does not allow her to be herself!  She increasingly have been telling me on different occasions how she can’t be sad at school, or sick, or cough due to allergy and I literary see her put up a smile just before meeting up her friends.  Which is very sad. I would love to know why she can’t be herself!  It struck me hard when two weeks ago the story telling session got cancelled. I told her that and immediately she pasted a smile on her face.  It reminded me, that I do the same in face of unpleasant things!

So let me reiterate, school for my kids is reaching the goal of teaching them the academics BUT it is not reaching their soul and love for life and diversity and THAT is why we want to homeschool.  So our children can grow lovingly and harmoniously from the inside to the outside without compromising anything.

It’s Maya’s 5th Birthday

I remember I woke at night feeling contractions ever so slight.  I smiled and went back to sleep.

Around 5 am I woke up, the waves were coming much more stronger and I paced the room, slowly near my sleeping older son, knowing with certainty that he will see his sister the following day.

Within an hour they were quite intense so I woke up my still unaware husband and prepared to go to hospital.  The waves were strong yet welcoming and calming at the same time.

And suddenly at 9.20 am you were born!  Happy Birthday sweetest child of mine.

My second child, you threw us upside down in many ways….you are so like me and yet so different.  Your heart of gold, your understanding, your ways at accommodating others is so intense and realy and wholesome that you put me to shame at times.

You need so much of me and I can’t afford to give you all of that but you stoicly accept that.

Your girly ways, which are alien even to me make me wonder, smile and give me merriment.

5 years passed like a dream. I wish I could hold you as a newborn again just so I can give you that extra comfort that you need.

I love you my little sunshine you are wonderful in every way!


4 years ago….

……I had a baby girl and she grew into this 4 year old
full of love, joy and happiness.
excited for her celebration with Nanna & Nannu

dressed as a fairy for her actual birthday

she wanted a party 🙂

she was so excited and had a lovely day

we also went to the petting farm

but all the excitement tired her out so we ended the party with a meltdown.  Later though she was happy again and slept happily surrounded with her helium balloon